likely_evil | Let me fall into you... RP for horsewoman

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Let me fall into you... RP for horsewoman_lana and <lj site="live

Once the shakes had stopped and Sam wasn't going through major symptoms of withdrawal, he planned on keeping his word to Lana. He missed her, and having spent the last month as far from her as he possibly could - sometimes not by his own choice - he just needed to have her there for him.

The world was on it's way to ending, after all. And he wasn't going to waste time.

Which was why on a Friday morning, an Amazon.com box arrived at Lana's office. He had checked to make sure that she was in the office that day, then paid a delivery guy a few bucks to hand deliver it around noon.

In the box was a hex bag, meant to hide the bearer from both demons and angels. Ruby had taught Sam how to make them - her mistake, their gain - and they had a bunch of them made and in the Impala for protection. The one he had sent was strong enough to take her and a good mile in all directions off the radars.

With the bag was a typed note. Keep this on you. Don't open it. Leave work, pack a weekend bag, and follow the map. Reservation for Ms. Lewis. Wait in room. - S.W.

The Impala was waiting out of sight, planing on trailing Lana on her way to the meeting spot, just to make sure she wasn't followed by anyone but them. There was a motel just outside of Bazine, KS. Out of the way along the 96 where no one in their right mind would really go looking for them. And it should have only been a 2-3 hour drive for Lana at most if she did the speed limit.

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"This... this was different, Lana." He looked up at her. "I did things that I'm not proud of. I became something I never wanted to be."

She frowned a little at him. As much as she'd like to shove him down onto the bed, they obviously needed to talk first.

"What happened?"

"Last time I saw you, Dean was in the hospital and I told you about things I was doing. But I didn't tell you what was really going on."

He took a deep breath, and told her about what he really had been doing with Ruby. About what happened with him and Dean. Why he hadn't been in touch on his birthday. About their fight. About Lilith. Ruby. Lucifer.

By the time he was finished, he couldn't look at her, instead looking at the ground. He felt better in one way - he was trying not to hide things anymore and it felt good to air it out. However it also reminded him of how much of a puppet he had been his whole life, and how he had started the beginning of the end of the world.

"And I don't even know what we can do to fix this. If we can fix this..."

She sat there and listened carefully to everything he had to say. She didn't really know how to respond. Ruby...God, if she weren't already dead, she would want to kill her, and not just for manipulating him either. In a way, she was actually jealous. When he'd stopped texting her, it was because he was trying to get in touch with Ruby, and she knew how addiction worked. Lana probably hadn't even crossed his mind for a while because he needed Ruby.

But she reminded herself it wasn't his fault. He'd made the choice, but he was manipulated, and well. She knew what that felt like. She'd felt stupid, but it was worse for him. On top of that, he had to deal releasing the Devil himself.

She couldn't find the words, so instead she just pulled him into a gentle hug. Words would come later.

He rest his head against her check, just holding her.

"I screwed up, Lana. Big time. I should have listened to Dean. He was trying to protect me and I just... I should have listened."

"I understand why you did what you did," she said softly. "You wanted to keep people safe, keep your family safe. She took advantage of that. Don't beat yourself up for being manipulated."

He looked up at her, laughing sadly. "You're dating a Winchester. It's our default setting."

There was a sad, almost grin before she brushed back some of his hair. Sometimes he reminded her so much of Clark it wasn't funny, not that she'd ever voice it. She was onto that bit of jealousy and wasn't about to encourage it.

"You and Dean will find a way to fix this. I know you will."

~~ooc: they still need that shirtless in the rain man fight~~

"We have to. Otherwise... a lot of people are going to die because of this."

~~[ooc: I just saw that in my head. Stop it.]~~

Lana looked at him with a worried expression. As much as she'd like to say she was worried about the fate of the world, she wasn't. Right now she cared about Sam and all the self-loathing that was brewing in that pretty head of his. She knew 'because of this' was really 'because of me'.

He looked away a moment, and then back at her while pulling her hips a bit closer to him. "That's why Dean and I have to stay low for awhile. Demons and angels are after us right now. It's worse than we thought it would ever get."

She nodded, taking in that information. Though his moving her was a little distracting. How she could get aroused during this conversation was beyond her comprehension.

"So I guess this is probably the last time I'll see you for a while..." A long while most likely.

His hand went up to run along her cheek, just watching her. "I hope not. I just won't be able to promise when or where."

Her eyes closed with his touch. It was so hard to focus on the words, even though they were important to her. If he wasn't catching onto what she was feeling, he was an idiot.

"But I'm going to try, I swear I'm going to."

He stretched his neck a bit to lean up and kiss her gently.

She returned that kiss, of course, but it didn't last as long as he'd probably expected it to.

"I need you, Sam," she whispered desperately. "I need you."

Translation: 'Take me now or I will hurt you.'

"I know," he said softly, his hands pulling her close. "I do too."

She kissed him again, and hard, hands clutching at his shirt. Then the words started to get to her. "I do too." It was bringing tears to her eyes no matter how much she squeezed them shut and tried to stop them.

He let her lead the kiss, slowly inching his way back onto the bed further, one arm still around her as the other helped him with the shift.

Then he felt her tears on his cheek and opened his eyes to look at her, then pulled his lips away, letting their foreheads stay touching. "What's wrong?"

She shook her head, smiling. "Nothing," she whispered. "Nothing's wrong." That would probably confuse him, but it was the truth.

Yeah, it did confuse him just a bit. But he also knew that women tended to act strange like that sometimes. So he just shook it off and reached up to her cheek, tilting her head just right for him.

"Good," he said before he kissed her again.

That got a soft sigh of pleasure from her, and her hands started to roam. It was so good to be with him again, to feel that sense of wholeness and know she could give him the same. They were equals. It was everything she'd ever wanted and never thought she'd ever have.

And Sam needed her. Because with Ruby's betrayal, it had been a knife in the back that cut deep. He knew that pain once, but from her it had threatened to rip him apart.

He had been gone from Lana so long now that he had almost forgotten how much love he felt from her when he was in her arms. How could he have? Had his addiction gone so deep that he had forgotten all of this?

His fingers dug into her a bit more, clinging, needing to remember and feel it again.

She wanted him to feel that love, and not just because he needed it. She needed it, too. She needed to give him that as much as she needed to feel loved by him. It had to go both ways. It had to be a partnership, or it was empty. And it was definitely not empty.

Her hands finally found their way to a button, and one by one they came undone until she was slowly sliding the shirt off him.

He didn't resist her undressing him, his own hands exploring along her and keeping her close to him. Once the shirt was sliding down his arms, he stopped long enough to be able to toss it away, then wrapped his hands around her and flipped them around on the bed so that she was laying down and he was above her, looking down as his hair framed his face.

"I really missed you," he said softly, then going to kiss her neck as his hands ran along her sides.

Let me fall into you... RP for horsewoman_lana and <lj site="live

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