He wasn't ready for that either, and needed to take a step or two back to get his balance when she came at him. But he kissed her right back, wrapping his arms around her and just clinging to her and trying not to cry like a little girl.

She was there. He was alive and for all he know this was his last chance at life and had run out of "Get Out of Hell Free" cards with this instance. There was no guarantee on how long the wall in his brain was going to hold up, and after that first scare, he knew that if he needed to have this in his life, he had to do it now.

Maybe if he and Lana worked, Dean would try and stay with Lisa more too.