He's got eyes that sing to me... remind me of childhood melodies...

[likely_evil]

Just for Bobby at the moment... others to join later...

They were in North Dakota according to the map that Alec and Dean had been looking at. There was something in the back of Sam's mind that found the town familiar. Little fireflies in his mind, wanting to guide him again.

Why were there fireflies in his mind? He always saw freflies, no matter where they went.

He had sat in the Impala after Dean and Alec went to bed because he was trying to figure this out when one big firefly came by the window, beckoning him to follow it. So he did, walking along the fields quickly as he tried to catch it.

When he was able to catch them, he remembered things. But the things he remembered with them would always fly away again. Out of his mind and into the wind. Not like the memories that Dean gave him.

He had a few now. Memory of a tape measure. Of a necklace. Small things and they were always of him as a kid. There were no adult memories. And Sam wondered why.

Soon, the firefly led him along the path to a junkyard. Sam could see all the magic here, trendils that wove a web in a white light. He was careful as he walked, not wanting to touch a single strand of it until he got to the door where the firefly had landed.

Sam tilted his head, reaching for the insect and wrapping his fingers around it roughly. Which on the other side of the door would sound like someone had knocked.

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[jstliketherifle.livejournal.com]

"Bobby, I can explain -- " Well, no, he really couldn't but that seemed to be the thing to say at the moment. Instead he took a deep breath and turned to Sam.

"Next time you take a trip down memory lane, Sammy? Leave a note or something?"

[likely_evil]

"I didn't know I was going here. Firefly."

Sam did look down though, sad. Dean was upset because of him, so Sam curled up a bit into himself. "Sorry."

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

Alec glared at Dean, and then decide that maybe that wasn't fair either, because Dean had been in nearly a blind panic and he was sure he hadn't meant to upset Sam. He headed over to Sam, skirting around Bobby a bit, and keeping an eye out for the man's dog. "Hey. He was just worried. Firely, uh?"

[maninflannel.livejournal.com]

Bobby just looked at Alec as he passed, keeping an eye out. He glanced to Dean. "Sorry he worried ya. Soon as I figured out what was goin' on.." he shrugged.

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"I know," Dean sighed, running a hand over his face, and leaning back against the hood of the Impala. He felt like he was ten again, and he didn't like that feeling. "He wasn't any trouble, was he?"

He would apologize to Sam later. Right now he was just trying to let everything go.

[likely_evil]

"Yeah. It landed on the door and Bobby opened it. And he has books, Alec. Lots of them but one hurt me and I fell into a bad circle and I couldn't move."

He snugged a bit into Alec, not looking at Dean. Dean was still upset.

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

"I know he has books." Isn't still sore about them. Oh no, what ever gave that idea? "I think you gotta be carefule with Bobby's books." He wrapped an arm around Sam, because touch was a trust and affection thing with him and he was pretty sure that Sam was the same way. "You got a lot of fireflies in your head?" Memories. Alec knew and analogy for memories when he heard one.

[maninflannel.livejournal.com]

Bobby shook his head and looked over towards Alec and Sam. "No. It was a lot like when you two were young. Just...wish I'd known."

[jstliketherifle.livejournal.com]

Dean sighed. "I was gonna say something eventually, I just -- " Wasn't sure what Bobby would do. " -- Kind of a hard thing to explain, ya know?"

[likely_evil]

Nodding to Alec, he snuggled closer. Then he looked at Dean. "I'm a demon."

How hard was that to explain?

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

"I think he was trying to be a little less blunt than that." Is amused, because he totally sides with Sam on this one, but hey, Bobby wasn't his family.

[maninflannel.livejournal.com]

"Yea...I get that." Small smirk in Sam's direction. "I mighta taken it okay that way."

[jstliketherifle.livejournal.com]

"You would have taken it better than I did," Dean muttered with a heavy sigh.

[likely_evil]

Sam just sighed and watched Dean. Finally he pushed away from Alec and got up, walking away without a word.

Dean was upset. He needed space. So Sam would take a walk. That's what Sam did when Dean was upset.

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

alec bit his lip, and forced himself to not snag Sam's sleave. Sam had a right to go where he wanted when he wanted. "Sam? Don't be gone to long okay?" Because that would just flip Dean out again.

[maninflannel.livejournal.com]

Bobby looked after Sam. "Where the hell's he goin'?"

[jstliketherifle.livejournal.com]

"I don't know," Dean shrugged. He knew it was his fault, he didn't need it rubbed in his face. "He'll be back though."

[likely_evil]

Sam wandered a bit until something caught his eye. It was a cross. There wasn't a cross on Bobby's land. They hung on the walls.

Sam went over to see what he was and saw two planks of wood lashed together. On the horizontal plank were the words SAM WINCHESTER.

Pain. Smoke. Fire. Dead. Pain. No. Blood. Pain. DEAN!

Sam fell to his knees and just stared at the cross, biting his lip.

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

Alec watched him wander away. It took so little to push Sam off balance and Alec knew that feeling and it blew. He looked over at Dean and didn't want to tell the man what to do with his own brothr. But still. . . "You should go get him later."

[maninflannel.livejournal.com]

Bobby kept his eyes in Sam's wake, concerned and quiet.

[jstliketherifle.livejournal.com]

Dean sighed heavily, before pushing himself to his feet and following Sam's wake. Sooner was better than later. He didn't say anything when he got up there, just watched Sam as he stared at the grave.

The grave itself still hurt. Even though he knew that there was Sam sitting beside it, it was still a reminder of the failure he'd made in keeping Sam safe the first time, and he hated coming up here. But this was where Sam had went, so naturally, that was where Dean followed.

[likely_evil]

Sam's hand went into the ground, and he carefully started to dig. His body was down there somewhere. He wanted his body back. This one was nice but it wasn't really his. The boy inside was in heaven now, so it wasn't like he needed it.

But Sam wanted his body again.

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

Alec crouched on the steps of the pourch. Just him and Bobby. Oh yeah, like that wasn't as uncomfortable as fuckall.

[maninflannel.livejournal.com]

Bobby sighed and moved back up onto the porch, then sat down in his chair and rocked slowly. Damned if he knew what to say.

[smart-alec494.livejournal.com]

Alec tapped his fingers agaisnt his knees for a couple of minutes. "Right. Fuck it." He didn't look at bobby, just kept stairing out of the the junk yard. "Look, I dig that you aren't my greatest fan. But do me a favore and trying and keep it on the down low while Sam's around. He's trying really damned hard and he doesn't need dissencion in the ranks. It'll just confuse him and screw with his karma. You do that for me and I'll stay the hell out of you way when he isn't around. Okay?" It came out as more like a demand that a question.