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Sam Winchester ([personal profile] likely_evil) wrote2010-09-08 09:56 pm

Letters: Anna

Dean had the letter, left in the glove box with his own. It was an eventuality - if Anna ever got her memories of them back. Words he felt needed to be told to her after he was gone, whether it was a week, year, or ten years later. And it came by mail one day since Dean couldn't hand it over himself.

The last words I ever said to you were that I wished you would forget us. I never thought it would happen, and I never realized how much it would hurt to witness it in reality.

But I was right, and I didn't live through the war. I'm sorry that my last words to you were in anger, and I wish anything to be able to take them back. Though if you're reading this, you remember me now, so I'm sure you know me well enough to know that before you even opened this up.

Anna... I don't know what to say. Goodbye letters weren't something I really planned, but I have to do something to keep me from worrying about tomorrow. Please, never ask Dean about what happened. I know what I have to do, and I can already see the pain in his eyes before this goes down. You don't want to make him relive this.

Just know that I went down swinging. My sacrifice was for the good, and to fix everything that I ever broke. This is my penance, and I'm taking it willingly. Maybe someday people will stop seeing me as the one who started the Apocalypse, and instead remember me as the one who helped save the world. It'll give me a little bit of peace where I'm going.

I can't predict what's going to happen between you and my brother. He's an idiot, but we both love him. He's going to need friends after this, and if he comes to you with this letter, just be there for him as a friend. Don't push his hand, or his heart. You know it'll only send him running, and I still believe you're a good influence on him. But if he never wants more, then just give him your friendship, and move on. You deserve to be loved, and if it can't be Dean, or myself, then there are others out there who will love you back with all their heart and treat you the way you deserve.

I'll miss you. Take care of yourself.


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